September 2011
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“We love the things we love for what they are.
― Robert Frost”
– (via dear-miss-lonely-heart)
August 2011
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July 2011
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June 2011
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““Holding on to what I haven’t got”
There’s something...”
– Waiting for the end- Linkin Park
My decision
He’s made his decision clear,
He’s painted beautiful pictures in my brain.
Every word is said with such certainty, so impossible to doubt.
His eyes show me everything, he keeps nothing from me.
&& now its up to me he says….
It’s my decision.
If only there were enough words to describe how I feel towards him.
If only I had the capacity to come up with words to let...
Alone.
This is getting worse I fear.
Even when I’m on the best company I feel alone with out him. I feel wrong for having such strong feelings. Like I’m already deep in && he isnt. At times I feel like what I feel isn’t being recipricated. I feel alone in this, I’m screaming for some help…..
Falling
This is scary to me.
The vulnerability I feel scares me, the fact that he has the power to hurt me and that I GIVE this power to him absolutely scares the fuck out of me. But I am, as much as I try I can’t fight it. I find myself wanting to be with him everyday. I see little things in him that I find irresistible. But why am I so scared? Why am I terrified to let him in? Why am I scared to...
Overreact.
I did.
I had nothing but fear make assumptions for me.
My imagination ran wild. Waiting for a response felt like eons.
Thank god I asked for an outside view or I fear I would’ve screwed everything I had worked up to.
The lesson learned here is always ask questions and never assume…..lesson learned.
Masochism
I keep reading it over && over again.
Even though they’re just words in a message, it cuts deep.
Every time I read it I find a new level of pain….I new meaning behind his words.
It hurts, but I can’t stop.
Me
just so youu know I like spending time with youu,
You could've warned me....
Everything I do, I do with everything I have.
There was no exception with him.
I did however hesitate to acknowledge my truest feelings…for fear that I may fall into a trap once again. I resisted my urge to quit and persisted to keep going hoping that it’d be what I’ve been waiting for.
….Now the day has come, the day I knew would eventually hit me like a ton of bricks. The...
sums up everything i feel && more.
its...
amaayzing.
i never thought i wouldd feel anything like this again.
sometimes it takes someone special to show you its ok to let your guard down…
im falling, && i hope hes ready to catch mee…..
First.
22 not yet grown. i still feel like a child only difference is bills and work….
im searching for god, health, happiness, and self love….
this is my journey (:
